eugenefu

on the fence

A lot of crap is going through my mind right now about the ‘what if’s… and it seems that there might be a higher chance of me not doing well for my english paper in Singapore, which I would require for my Australian permanent residency application.

I don’t want to resit it and spend another whole lot of money… if only I did it well the first time.

Feeling really crappy now as I can’t keep in contact with Charlene to talk things through with her about what would be my next step… because I need her feedback to know if everything is alright if I make this (probable life changing) decision.

If I meet the requirement (7 out of 9) for IELTS in all segments.
All is well but that means… I wouldn’t see Charlene, my family and friends back home in Singapore.

If I do not meet the requirement (7 out of 9) for IELTS
All is still quite well. I would get to stay with Charlene and family and meet up with friends back home…. But… lose out what I set to achieve in the beginning of settling down in Australia as the losses (monetary terms) outweigh the gain if I continue to pursue that ambition.

My goal now is to work hard & prepare for the worst.